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Sunday, April 24, 2005
Wednesday, April 13, 2005
Where am I headed?
God, where am I going? What will I be doing in the next ten years? What are my dreams? Will they come true? A long time ago I stopped seriously dreaming and wanting for myself because I wanted to follow your will for my life and not my own. But now I think I've lost the ability to dream, to look inside and feel what I wanted to do. I feel lost at times and question the path that I am on or the goal to which I am heading toward. Are what I'm saying I want and what I truly deep down want really the same. I trust that you have placed inside of me dreams and wishes that is part of your way of showing me your plan and will for my life. But I'm now to scared or far away to see them anymore. Sometimes I catch a glimpse of what my heart wants, of what it is trying to tell me. I catch a glimpse of the dreams and the passion. But it doesn't last long enough to put into words. I've lost or never had the ability to express this desire or Romance:
God, where am I going? What will I be doing in the next ten years? What are my dreams? Will they come true? A long time ago I stopped seriously dreaming and wanting for myself because I wanted to follow your will for my life and not my own. But now I think I've lost the ability to dream, to look inside and feel what I wanted to do. I feel lost at times and question the path that I am on or the goal to which I am heading toward. Are what I'm saying I want and what I truly deep down want really the same. I trust that you have placed inside of me dreams and wishes that is part of your way of showing me your plan and will for my life. But I'm now to scared or far away to see them anymore. Sometimes I catch a glimpse of what my heart wants, of what it is trying to tell me. I catch a glimpse of the dreams and the passion. But it doesn't last long enough to put into words. I've lost or never had the ability to express this desire or Romance:
Philosophers call this Romance, this heart yearning set within us, the longing for transcendence; the desire to be part of something larger than ourselves, to be part of something out of the ordinary that is good. Transcendence is what we experience in a small but powerful way when our city's football team wins the big game against tremendous odds. The deepest part of our heart longs to be bound together in some heroic purpose with others of like mind and spirit. - The Sacred Romance
The heart yearning is there, the excitement at times is almost overwhelming. But I have just always suppressed it. It felt to funny at the time, I was to conscious of what others saw and thought, or I was afraid to express myself. And now I almost can't express myself. I'm out of practice, my mind just doesn't work that way, but my heart wants to sometimes.
In the midst of all of this questioning and wondering this quote holds another larger grain of truth that has greatly become a reality in my life recently. The desire and longing to be bound together with others of like mind and spirit of a heroic purpose. This I have found in the servant team of CRU ministry here. The girls in this group make up a unique and special group of people in my life and what makes it even better is that we are all working together toward the goal of reaching our campus for Christ and impacting this world. No goal or purpose is higher than this, and no matter how small or large my part in this is, it brings my heart joy and purpose and a dream that I have forgotten for a while. My mind has stuck to it and my mouth repeats it, but now my heart also joins with it. There are still so many unanswered questions and I will probably never have the answers to all of them.
But I choose to rest in the arms of the Lord and trust in his will and joy and grace and peace and blessings and unsurpassable wisdom.
Wednesday, March 09, 2005
Daytona Here I come!!
I got accepted to the Daytona Beach Summer Project!! I can't wait to get there. It is going to be so hard waiting and making it through the rest of the semester now!! hehe.
I guess I'll just have to work harder now at being a nerd! Oh well. Please pray that I can get all of the support that I need in!! I'm working on my letters right now and have a long list of people to send to. If you would like to be on that list and help send me to Daytona this summer that would be great. Just let me know!! I can use all of the help that I can get.
Other random happenings:
1. no one showed up for a tour during my duty time, so I got out of that early.
2. I didn't have a waffle for breakfast this morning.
3. I got sick of my room and rearranged it yesterday. It felt good and I like the new set up. I religiously do this at least twice a year. You know when you can't stand things anymore and you just need a little change. Something new; a new atmosphere.
4. I am now officially 6 papers behind in History, they are due March 30th, and by then I will have 8 due!!
5. My best friend Joy, who goes to OSU and is from Paris, whom I have not seen in over a year, is coming down for a weekend soon!!! I'm so excited.
6. I got accepted to be a Community Advisor for next year, so that means I'll have a single room!! I also get to come back to school early.
7. I got elected to be Honor Board Vice-Chair for next year! working my way up the chain here.
8. I love my physics class!!
9. I think I'm running out of things to say.
10. I have to go to class now! History of the New South!! Yippee (not really)
11. So have a good day everyone
I got accepted to the Daytona Beach Summer Project!! I can't wait to get there. It is going to be so hard waiting and making it through the rest of the semester now!! hehe.
I guess I'll just have to work harder now at being a nerd! Oh well. Please pray that I can get all of the support that I need in!! I'm working on my letters right now and have a long list of people to send to. If you would like to be on that list and help send me to Daytona this summer that would be great. Just let me know!! I can use all of the help that I can get.Other random happenings:
1. no one showed up for a tour during my duty time, so I got out of that early.
2. I didn't have a waffle for breakfast this morning.
3. I got sick of my room and rearranged it yesterday. It felt good and I like the new set up. I religiously do this at least twice a year. You know when you can't stand things anymore and you just need a little change. Something new; a new atmosphere.
4. I am now officially 6 papers behind in History, they are due March 30th, and by then I will have 8 due!!
5. My best friend Joy, who goes to OSU and is from Paris, whom I have not seen in over a year, is coming down for a weekend soon!!! I'm so excited.
6. I got accepted to be a Community Advisor for next year, so that means I'll have a single room!! I also get to come back to school early.
7. I got elected to be Honor Board Vice-Chair for next year! working my way up the chain here.
8. I love my physics class!!
9. I think I'm running out of things to say.
10. I have to go to class now! History of the New South!! Yippee (not really)
11. So have a good day everyone
Saturday, February 05, 2005
Picts...
...not the ones in Scotland. I have now posted a bunch of pictures from my month in London that I hope give you a pretty good look at what it was like there. Like I said in my last post, we went everywhere, and I have way too many pictures to post them all so I tried to pick the best and most representative ones. I tried to put a couple up with me in them. We had a blast walking around everywhere. I hope you enjoy the slide show. Sorry it's so long. You'll probably have to look through a couple of pages to see them all. The are posted in the opposite order in which they were taken but it should all be cool. Enjoy!!
...not the ones in Scotland. I have now posted a bunch of pictures from my month in London that I hope give you a pretty good look at what it was like there. Like I said in my last post, we went everywhere, and I have way too many pictures to post them all so I tried to pick the best and most representative ones. I tried to put a couple up with me in them. We had a blast walking around everywhere. I hope you enjoy the slide show. Sorry it's so long. You'll probably have to look through a couple of pages to see them all. The are posted in the opposite order in which they were taken but it should all be cool. Enjoy!!
