this test was actually kind of funny. Just a side note: It rated me high for gluttony but i'm not fat at all and all I said was that I enjoy good food. Which is very true.

The Dante's Inferno Test has sent you to Purgatory!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Extreme
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Very High
Level 2 (Lustful)	Very Low
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	High
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Very Low
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Very Low
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Very Low
Level 7 (Violent)	Low
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	Low
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Very Low

Take the Dante's Divine Comedy Inferno Test

hey what happened to my comments or is this just me, cause i can't view anybodies comments

I skipped work at the Horse camp today. I have closed at the Natures Table at the florida mall for the past three nights and close again today. 3 to close is a long shift especially when you live half an hour away. My parent are on there way to Korea. I haven't seen my sister for more than half and hour each day for the past four days. it really stinks. I think I'll take her to the movies tomorrow night. Any movie suggestions?

I really do like working at Natures Table(NT from now on) . It's a lot of work, a lot of washing of dishes, making sandwiches and preparing of food. Oh yeah and I'm on my feet the whole time. I do get a half hour break and can eat what ever I want there. And the people are really nice. The food is really good. It would be fun though if some of my friend came and visited me at work. If anyone is down at the Florida Mall stop by the food court. The other people I work with all live in the area and have friends/girlfriends/boyfriends stopping by all the time.

Ooo... I was walking around the other day and there is this really cool store in the mall. It is full of all kinds of writing stuff. Pens, journals, inks, sealing stuff. It's really cool. They even have this really neat glass pen. kind of like a guille pen that you dip in ink and then write with, except it's glass and has cool colours and designs on it. I really want one. I think I'll get one and then write letters to all of my friends. that's one thing I want when I go to college. I want a really cool stationary set, and to be able to write really pretty letters. I already have a calligraphy set and I really want to get better with it. I also want to learn to use my chinese calligraphy set and have a sealing wax set. I love writing letters. and getting them. And I like doing personal touches to them. I guess I'm just an romantic idealist but I wish letter writing and handwriting was still an art taught in school and I love the way letters and writing was done in the old days. I think a letter is so much more personal than an e-mail. don't get me wrong, e-mail is great for transmitting information quickly. But there is something simply satisfying and nastalgic about receiving a snail mall letter. I just wish I had a lot more time to learn these things and to write more often. which reminds me I have a couple of cards and letters to write. I hope you've enjoyed my ramblings.

Hey, I think I'm feeling a little more alive. but that may only be because it's morning. I always feel good in the morning. as the day progresses, especially by night, I feel more depressed or disgusted with my self. I don't know why, it's just who I am. Recently I've felt really disgusted about myself. I haven't been spending much time with my sister, partly because of work but then it's also my fault. I love her to death and I'm going to miss her a lot when I go off the college but I haven't been showing that love to her. And the stinky part is that she really needs me right now. My parents are about to leave for Korea for a week and a half and then they are here for a week and then they and my sister are off again to south carolina and Georgia to visit supporters and family and other things. So me and Laura are home alone for a while and then it will be just me. It seems like this summer is going by to fast and I'm not getting to spend time with my family and hang with them. I've been working at the horse camp every morning so that's kept me busy and I now have a job at the Florida mall so I'm gone in the afternoons too. I always feel terrible and left out and disconected when I don't spend time with my family.
I feel like crying. Laura just had a big thing happen in her life that she got in trouble for and i wasn't her to talk about it with her. I'm shure she would have confided in me but I wasn't her. And I promised her a while ago to take her to she a certain movie and now it's not in theatres any more. i also haven't writen my best friend in Paris in a while and I feel out of touch. I really do feel like a hermet and as much as I would like to be a monk It feels terrible to see things go one around you and not be involved. I love getting calls from friends and hanging with them and feeling special. But I never make the effert to call them so I don't blame anybody for my depression it's all my fault. but for some reason I don't do anything about it. My selfishness and selfdisgust is killing me but I don't know how to get out of it. I haven't spent time with God in a while and I miss it terribly. There is this ache inside to be with Him but I don't know how to fill it. I don't know what to do... do I pray, what about, do I write in my journal, what do I write, do I read my Bible, where do I start, do I do a devotional book, which one and will it help? And when do I spend time with Him, it seems Like it would take hours to have a fullfilling quite time and get everything off my chest that I want him to know and to really worship Him. Sometimes I don't like summers because my spiritual life goes dead along with my brain. And when that happens My heart goes dead to. Hense the fact that I turn into a hermit in the summer time.


Carry Me Through by LADS

Put your arms around, around this life of mine
And hold me for a while
I am trying to find a way to deal with this
But I don't know how

I can't stop this pain and I don't understand
What I'm supposed to do
Nothing seems the same, my world is falling down
How can I get through

Carry me through, carry me through this time
Now I need you, cause my world is falling down
Help me to find a way, to make it through another day
I need you here with me

On my knees again, I have broken down
The tears begin to fall
It feels like everything is slipping through my hands
And crashing to the floor

It seems i'm at the end
And I don't have the strength
To make it on my own
Put your arms around
Around this life of mine
And hold me for a while

Carry me through, carry me through this time
Now I need you, cause my world is falling down
Help me to find a way, to make it through another day
I need you here with me

Hey, yeah right now I'm just feeling a little emotionally and in other senses dead, so I'll probably write more when I'm more alive. For some reason everytime I get on here I know there is so much going on that I want to tell but I just don't know how or I think I'll do it later. So maybe later when I come out of my hole I'm digging. Right know a hermit's life sounds really good to me or maybe I'll take a vow of silience and become a monk. actually that doesn't sound to bad. They have a pretty nice life, they get to serve God all the time, nothing is complicated for them. I think I'll become a monk. but I'm already dead, so that doesn't work. Maybe I'll write more when I feel like speaking from the grave. Later...

Yeah I'm so happy I got the comments working so now people can respond to what I write. this is so cool. I also added some links on the side to all of my friends sites. I hope to add more links when I find more sites...hehe...I just got back from eating supper to find my screensaver on and it put a smile on my face. I am often amused or put into a better mood by small things that I find amusing but other people might not. Sometimes I give a little giggle and people look at me like "what's so funny" but I don't care. My screen saver slowly flips through different beach and water scene's with bright blue skies and crystal clear water like in the caribian or something. It's so peaceful and pretty. Anyways that's my screensaver that made me smile when I came back to my site to finish this post. I think I'm finished now cause I can't think of anything else to say. Oh I taped Moulin Rouge on tv the other night so I can watch it any time I want yeah...

Ok I'm trying to get the comments working does it work?

Hey there. I just went shopping and got two new CD's that I wanted. I normally don't go out and buy things spontaniously. ussually it has to be something I really need to get me to go out and buy it.. but I had some money and I wanted these CD's. i got Josh Groban's CD.... he has an amazing voice and I love that type of music it puts me in a magical day dreamy kind of mood... I have Charlotte Church's CD as well and they sang a song together that is also on Josh's CD called The prayer. They other CD that I got was the soundtrack to Moulin Rouge, I just recently saw the movie and loved it, especially the music again my type of music. Classic, yet powerful songs that kinda give you a sad yet happy feeling inside... it was kind of funny because after I saw the movie I didn't want to do anything. I felt happy and like I couldn't stop smiling yet I also felt sadly depressed and like crying at the same time. I love movie's that can do that to me... that's called a really good movie... It kept my attention and had such a passionate story to tell. I think I'm in love now... but that's okay because I'm allowed to day dream and have hopes aren't I... I believe everyone has the right to dream and it doesn't matter if it's not practical. anyway's that's enough about the two new CD's I got i'll write later...

Listening to Josh Groban self titled CD (my new one)(I'll listen to the other one later)

Jack....Who's Jack you may ask, well you all know.... He's the perfect dream guy who one day will become reality. He may have changed a little from now until then but he will still be the perfect guy... and his name may change but that's ok because he's still the same perfect guy that God has waiting out there for us somewhere and he will bring into our lives when the time is right. I think that is so encouraging... Now to tell about my Jack....
Jack is from South Africa and he has an Afrikaans/British accent and he's kind of a rugged but still clean cut gentleman. He has deep enveloping green eyes and dirty blonde hair. He's strong and broad across the shoulders, with built muscles. He's anywhere from 5' 10" to 6' 0". He'll be able to pick me up and sweep me into his arms and make me feel safe and secure. He will enjoy many things like: horseback riding and swimming and playing different sports. He'll also like music and play the piano as well as the guitar and sing. He'll like both cats and dogs and fish. He'll aprecciate fine cooking and good wine and love to be romantic aswell as real. he'll have big strong hands that are very gentle and he'll know just what people need and how to help them. He'll be a good listener and know how to make you feel comfortable. He'll also enjoy reading and just being able to sit in silience in each others company. But he'll know when to be social and crazy aswell. And he'll never hold me back. I know this is a really tall order for my dream guy and I could go on for pages talking about what I want him to be like. But it's dreaming so I can make him anything I want to... and if I keep dreaming and giving it to God and praying for my Jack,.. someday I'll have him and he will be ten times better than my dreams...I can't wait....maybe I'll meet him in College.... I'll just keep dreaming...He'll be real someday!!!!
oh yah, I start work at the Horse Camp bright and early tomorrow...no more sleeping in..