Finals are coming up soon, one week of classes left. That means that Summer Project is that much closer. I'm beginning to get more excited about it but I know I can't let myself really think about it until I am finished with school. I got all my support in, which is such a blessing from God!! But in all of this great stuff thats going on around me and happening, I really don't feel all that happy. I'm not joyful right now. I really feel like all this college stuff is rather pointless in the grand scheme of things. Why can't I get on with living my life right now instead of having to wait two more years before I can travel the world and go into the mission field full time. I guess I'm just having a lot of doubts right now about what I'm supposed to be doing right now. I'm starting to doubt my major and the school I chose. I'm wondering if it's too late to change anything or if it's all pointless now. I'm unsure of whether my doubts are even founded or if it's just me going thru a phase again. I guess I'm just disatisfied with alot of things right now and one of those things is myself and my walk with God.
It will all be over soon, whether I survive it in one piece or not. And then I'll have an awesome summer and God will refresh me, because I'm tired of where I'm at right now, and I don't want to stay here. It's just a little hard to see my way out at times.
God please hold my hand for a little bit longer... lift me up out of the mess I'm in... of the mess I've made of my heart and my soul... piece me back together again to serve your purposes and your Glory!!